It is not okay that I don't get to see him but I told him otherwise because I do not have the right to feel bad. I mean, who am I to him? I'm just his friend. I'd like to be a good friend to him and not let my heart get involved but what will I do? I've loved him 4 years ago and I love him now more than ever. I just wish things are okay. After tomorrow, I will have to live up to the fact that all these years, he has never seen me at all and only God knows until when I will feel this way. Not even a glance.