Crochet Doily

I just made my first ever crochet doily. I've been looking for a nice and easy pattern and good thing, I've found one!!! So easy to do that it didn't take much time to finish one. Can't wait to make more doily!!

Job Interview

I got a call last Friday from a certain company inviting me for a job interview tomorrow. I've been unemployed since September 28, 2012 and I think it's about time that I get a job - a much better job than my previous one.

My ideal job - 8 to 5 schedule, weekend off, holiday off and competitive compensation. I am not sure if the position I will be interviewed for is my ideal job. It might not have the schedule I've always wanted but as long I get the job, the salary is way, way better than my past jobs and I get the Saturday off for my MBA, I will gladly accept it. If it's God's will that I get the job, thank you. If not, I'll wait for another company to call me.

I like this song

I first heard this on the radio and I liked it. I think the singers have beautiful voice. The music is good to listen as well.

We meet again!!!!

Bianca Gonzalez, for me, has to be one of the most beautiful, intelligent, positive, admirable women. Her outlook and advocacy in life are contagious. She's a woman of substance and truly an inspiration. She excels in her craft. These are just some of the reasons why she is loved and admired. I love her. I'm one of her biggest fan. Few years ago, I saw her for the first time at USTv Awards and we had a picture together. Unfortunately, I was not able to save it because my phone then broke down. Today, I came to her morning show, Umagang Kay Ganda, just to see her and personally give the crochet scarf I made for her. Big thanks to my cousin Pam who works at ABS CBN and accompanied me and to her friend from News and Current Affairs for making it possible for me to visit UKG. I gave her a rainbow colored scarf, as colorful as her personality. She was so nice to me when I called her and gladly smiled at me. We even shook hands when she introduced herself. And we have picture together. Aaaaah! I'm really a fan!!!

Yarn shopping

I want and need to go yarn shopping!!! I have many stocks though but I get so much happiness in yarn shopping! I get so thrilled to see so many yarns! :)

I'm posting pictures I got from the internet. Totally my peg for a yarn store. I wish I have one of my own!!!

I have to research which country sells the best quality of yarns! I have to have lots of stocks of good yarns so I can make more crochet stuff!

My Name is KAE

Most of the time, my nickname K-A-E is spelled as K-A-Y-E or K-A-Y and worst K-H-A-Y-E. The first two spellings are the most common but the one with H is just annoying. There were times when a lot of people are putting H in their name. Oh, please spare my name. I don't want H in my name!!

This morning, I arrived so early at UST (for my MBA class) so I went to Starbucks (along Dapitan) to get a coffee and use my January coupon (the ones free at the 2013 planner) and to my surprise, whoever made my coffee got my name spelled correctly! It was a first time at Starbucks! He/She made my morning! I know, it's just simple things but those little things can make me smile. :)

Crochet Scarf - Rainbow

My newest creation!!! Crochet scarf in rainbow colors which I made for one the smartest, most beautiful, positive, inspiring women I truly admire - BIANCA GONZALEZ. I am going to give it to her personally. Luckily, I have a cousin who works at ABS - CBN and she has a way for me to come to Umagang Kay Ganda (wherein Bianca G is a host). I've seen her once but I wanna see her again!

Approximately 65 inches long and 4.5 inches wide

Aside from the scarf, I am also giving her couple of crochet earrings! I really hope she'll like my gift.

P.S.

I accept made to order for a very reasonable price. Just leave a comment. Thank you. :)

Favorite tweets!

Sharing some of my favorite tweets!

Today's accomplishment!

Woooohooooo! I am so happy!!! :)

I have a little accomplishment today! Guess what???

*drum rolls, please*

I drove from my house (in Balanga City) to SBMA!!

That's my longest driving destination so far. 54 kilometers!!! And my mother actually allowed me to drive that far with her and my aunt!!! How cool was that?? Well, as they say it, boredom kills and my mother was totally bored and wanted to go out but I am the only one who is very much willing to drive for her. Hahaha! :))

Looking forward to my next long drive!! Though I get tired when I drive far, I am actually enjoying it!!! :))

The biggest crush of my life!

Earlier this afternoon, I visited my former workplace. A former office mate came home from USA for a quick vacation. I met up with her and the rest of the gang. There were 11 of us who had dinner together at Yellow Cab in Eastwood. The highlight of the visit is that I got to see the man I have the biggest crush with. And with biggest I mean huge!!! I super like him that when I see him I get really nervous and kilig. :) The nicest thing about having a crush with him is that I don't get upset that he doesn't like me back but am just too happy every time I see and talk to him. He has a girlfriend and is a professor. But it doesn't matter. What's important is that his presence makes a big impact on me. He makes my day and when he smiles, I can totally melt with so much kilig. He's smart, chubby (I'm so into chubby guys) and cute. Some of my friends think otherwise but he really is cute for me. I could stare at him all day and won't get bored. :)

I wish I could share his picture here but I don't think he will be so happy if he finds out that I posted it so I won't do it. :))

Some good memories

Late Post: I totally forgot I made this sometime in 2009. Better to post it though! These are good memories after all.

He gave this to me when he went to US for a vacation.

This is a candle holder he gave to me sometime in November 2007.

The bag he gave me sometime in March 2008. :)

This is a keychain given by my sister. I love it because it's like a locket where you can place a picture when you open it. I put his picture inside and carry this with me all thetime.

Out first movie together. :)

Second movie. =)

I bought this little bears so I could give it to him but I've decided to keep it instead.

Realizations

I do not know him.

Hating him will definitely make things easier to forget. What he did is totally wrong. He made me believe that he wanted to see me. In tagalog, pinaasa ako. And because I thought he was telling the truth, I believed in him. Again, in tagalog, naging gaga ako dahil naniwala ako. To hate him could have been easier because I was badly hurt. But I thought, "how can I hate someone I do not know?". Sure, I know his name, birthday, where he lives (just the place, not the exact address), his line of work and some of his failed relationships. Aside from that, I know nothing about him. I do not know his likes and dislikes. I do not know what could make him happy or sad. I do not know what excites him and makes him mad. Then I asked myself, "will it make me happy to hate him? will it compensate all the pain he has caused me?" Of course, the answer is no. I cannot live a peaceful and happy life knowing that I hate someone. Not only it is exhausting to have such negative emotions, it is also a waste of time. A misery cannot be solved by another misery. Why would I spend my life hating someone when I could just shift my attention to something or someone that could bring happiness to me? I don't feel any hatred towards him. I am disappointed and hurt.

Everybody deserves another chance.

At one point in my life, I wanted a second chance or even third and fourth just to prove how important a certain person was to me. I lost my one great love and he didn't give our relationship a second chance so I know exactly how it feels not to have been given another chance. Yesterday, when he cancelled our meet up for the third freaking time, I had the choice to just ignore him. Then I remember that certain event in my life and I thought, "why won't I give him a chance to at least say sorry (which I hope he did out of sincerity) when I know how awful it is not to have another chance?" I would to think that he's really sorry and values our friendship. I just hope he realizes that I could have not given him an another chance for what he did but I chose to give him that because he deserves it whether what he did was intentional or not. I do not know what were his reasons. All I know is that things happen for a reason. I have always believed that a person's character cannot be defined by one mistake. He was wrong for his actions but it doesn't follow that he is entirely bad. I believed in the goodness that I saw in him. If I didn't give him a chance, who else will? His girlfriend for 5 years gave up on him. His most recent ex - girlfriend is now with someone else. He deserves another chance. No one is perfect. Everyone makes mistake.

I love him BUT he's just not into me.

What an awful reality but yeah, he didn't see me the way I saw him. I won't deny it, he broke my heart. Or that reality broke my heart. I am currently on the process of healing it. It was badly hurt. This is life, it really happens. But yesterday was just so terrible! I felt like I caught all the stupidity that ever existed. Now, I am okay. A little hurt. I still think about him once in a while. I still wonder what could have been if it was US. Are we going to be happy? Are we going to survive the long distance relationship? I wonder how does it feel to tell him 'I love you' and when he replies back 'I love you, too'. Yeah, I know those are silly thoughts. :) But hey, that is not impossible. Life is full of surprises. I just hope that he doesn't realize my worth when I have moved on already.. I love him but it's not enough that I could wait for him forever. I prayed to God that if we're meant to be together, maybe this time is too early for us, I will not give up on him. And if we're not, I will gladly accept it.

We're friends but we don't have to talk again anytime soon.

Last night was our last conversation until such time that I decide to talk to him again. I've told him that he won't hear anything from me for quite sometime because I need to put things back into places. I also told him that even though we won't be talking as much as we used to do, we will remain friends. It's just that I'm a terrible friend when my heart gets involved. I am going to miss him and our conversations but I don't think we'll have to talk anytime soon. Maybe few weeks or months from now or even years. I cannot totally move on if we are in touch. And the less I know, less pain and easier to get over everything that has happened.

Pray a lot. Pray harder. Pray when you need it and even when you don't.

I haven't been attending mass for the last few years and believe me, I am so embarrassed that I don't. I am going back soon. I just have to find my way again. But I pray. A lot. I talk to Him and when I do, it gives me clarity. He answers questions even before I ask it. He guides me to the right path. He really does wonders. He is the miracle. I would have not survived the 27 years of my life if not with Him. So when He did not give that man to me, I knew He has greater things for me. I trust Him my whole life.

True love waits.

I haven't found the person I am destined to be with but I know I will. The Lord will bring him to me when He thinks it's the right time. After all the heartaches I have been through, I just know that true love definitely waits. It wasn't Otep or Miguel or Marvin. He will come along at the right moment at the right time and for the right reasons. And when he does, I'll be ready by then.

How to heal my broken heart

My poor broken heart deserves an immediate remedy. It has to heal soonest because I don't think I deserve a broken heart after what I have been through. So here's what I will do for the next couple of days, weeks and months maybe.

1. DON'T TALK ABOUT IT.

I have been talking about it to my friends for more than a week already, most of my blog entries are about it, and I've said too much to him already so THIS HAS TO STOP. I am done talking about how terribly awful it is.

2. CUT ANY WAYS OF COMMUNICATION.

He's no longer in my Skype contacts and Facebook friends' list. I do not know his Canada mobile number. After today, we won't be talking anymore until such time I am okay.

3. BE PRODUCTIVE.

I should be really busy every single day so I won't have to think about it. I cannot promise that in the next coming days, he will be off my mind already. It's not possible but he will as I move on.

4. GO OUT ON A DATE.

This doesn't mean I need a new guy to be crazy with but I think it's about time I meet new men to open doors of finding the right one. I kinda need a social life, don't you think? But this time, I will be very, very careful. I'm always a victim of bored people.

5. EXERCISE.

Yes! I should go back into exercising. It's a good way to release bad emotions.

6. NOTE TO SELF AT ALL TIMES.

True love waits. Time heals wound. Things will fall into its places if it's meant to be.

7. PRAY HARDER.

Talk to Him when you're happy and sad. He does all the wonders. He heals a broken heart.

After January 12

I know that the last couple blog entries are too boring because I've been ranting about my heartaches and disappointments over a certain guy. This blog site is a personal one and it has been my outlet for the last 3 years so please, please bear with me (if there's anyone who actually reads this). I've given myself to feel terrible about the things that have happened until January 12. On that day, he flies out to Canada and I don't know if we'll ever see each other again. I guess 3 more days of thinking, wondering and asking are not so bad for someone like me who will deal in fixing my broken heart for the next couple of weeks. Yeah, I have quite a hard time mending a broken heart. I'm positive though that this one won't be so difficult compared to my past heartaches.

If ever you get to read more of my rants, sorry. But it's one of the ways to vent out what I feel. Sometimes, it's easier to just write down your thoughts that to talk to people about it because they have different opinions.

After January 12, I promise to write more sensible and interesting blog entries.

McDonald's and my crazy lovelife

You may all be wondering why McDonald's has something to do with my crazy love life. Well, let me share to you why.

February 14, 2003 - Otep and I had our very first Valentine's date at McDonald's Gov. Forbes branch. If I am not mistaken, he ordered a Bigmac and mine was a Cheese burger! Nothing fancy but a cute date, don't you think? I still smile whenever I look back at those memories.

July 2008 - I met this one guy at work in McDonald's Balanga branch that after 4 years, I'd fell in love with. (Oh, I said it!!! Yeah, yeah, am in love. boo!!!) Imagine this - you set your eyes on him for the very first time, you felt connection, you wanted to get to know him and it all started there. Fast forward to 2012, he came back and so as the feeling I had when we met. Oh my, so corny!!! But hey, that's exactly how I felt.

Two different stories. Two different persons. Two crazy love stories. Otep was my boyfriend for almost 2 years. And he is my one great love. The other one is a friend. Otep and I had a beautiful story. The most recent one is just my story because the feeling isn't mutual.

I look back on how I've met them and I smile. They are good memories. :)

On job searching

Yes!! It's about time I seek for a new job.

It's a great way to shift my mind and not to think about him. I need to find a good job more than I need to contemplate on him and his weird personality changes.

I will find a job!

12LizPicksofChristmas

Last December 2012, Liz Uy and Plains and Prints gave away 12 items for their Twitter followers. Being a huge fan of Liz Uy, I am really following her tweets and much to my luck, I was the 11th winner of their Christmas promo called 12LizPicksofChristmas. Yes, I won! All I did is retweet one of Liz's tweets!!! So easy, right?

Liz Uy's tweet

I won!!!

Here's my prize!! A bag from Plains and Prints

Chicken Savory Marquee Mall

Yesterday, December 29, 2012, we (parents, niece, aunt, cousins and I) went to Marquee Mall in Angeles, Pampanga just to catch the dancing fountain they saw last year during the holiday season. When we got there, it was time for dinner and the dancing fountain wasn't there. Instead, there were performers, huge lanterns and fireworks display. We had dinner at Chicken Savory because I heard the chicken they serve is really good and it was my first time to eat at that restaurant. When we were about to take a seat I asked the manager about their promo as I saw it on the table - minimum single receipt of Php1000 using BDO card will have free dish. We ordered food and my father asked again about the promo. The crew who was taking our order mentioned about the promo if our bill will be paid cash. Again, minimum single receipt of P1000 with SM advantage card will get free pancit canton. I gladly told the crew that we'll take the promo since my aunt has her SM advantage card. Much to our surprise, when my mother mentioned the senior citizen card, we were informed that we cannot avail the promo if my parents will use their senior citizen card. They said we cannot avail 2 promos in one transaction so I corrected them by telling that SENIOR CITIZEN DISCOUNT is not a promo but a privilege. I said we won't take the promo anymore. Food was served. We finished dinner. My mother again asked if she insisted on having her and my father's food to be billed separately, will they allow us to avail the promo since we are sure we are spending more than P1000 on our food excluding my parents'. In that way, they could use their SC card and we could avail the promo. They said NO. And here are there stupid reasons:

1. They insisted - two promos (SCD and free dish) can't be avail in one transaction. Really stupid.

2. If seated in one table altogether, food ordered can't be billed separately even payments will come from two different person. Really, what's the logic?

Here are what I have to say on their stupid SCD, promo and billing guidelines:

1. Again, SCD is not a promo, it's a privilege.

2. They are misleading their customers. Sure, people would be delighted to know they can avail the promo but little did they know that they are being manipulated by not allowing them to use SCD (for those qualified) at the same time of availing promo because the restaurant will take advantage of the customers who is not aware of the truth.

3. They have the most stupid promo and billing guidelines. It doesn't make sense that if seated in one table, they can't be billed separately. This is just annoying.

4. They have to review their promo rules and inform the customers.

This food establishment does not know how to treat customers properly. They have such a poor service.

Day Tour at Las Casas Filipinas de Acuzar

It is located at Bagac, Bataan and known for its beautifully restored old houses from different places in the Philippines. While the old houses are really interesting as well as their desire to live the tradition and culture in our country, I think it's overrated. Service is inefficient. They lack restaurants. We went there this morning and wanted to have lunch but their buffet is ridiculously priced Php750 pesos when there weren't much varieties of food to offer. Their Italian restaurant is packed because of limited seats and by the time we finished the tour, the restaurant was already closed. My uncle wanted to order coffee but it was out of stock. Seriously, they accommodate guests for overnight and day tout but they do not have enough food and beverages to offer. Oh, soda in can costs freaking Php55.00. Their kalesa (horse carriage) is only one and the horse would take a break from walking once in a while that will make the guests wait. I heard if you check in in one of the houses, it costs Php20,000 per night. Wow. That amount could give 3 day vacation in either Cebu, Bicol or Cagayan de Oro. I really think they need improvement on service and facilities.

Take a peek though on some of our pictures. My niece, Bella, seemed to enjoy the day tour.

Bella posing as the angel

Bella and Mama

B posing again as angel

Papa and Mama

Fatttt!!!

Huge legs

Nice ceiling

Old bicycle

Old dental chair

Hotel + souvenir shop

One of the old restored houses

Me at the gazebo

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Dr. Jose Rizal

Tita Grace posing beside the door of an old house

Taken before we left

Papa at the gazebo

Bella at the horse carriage

Sungka

Disclaimer: This blog entry is not intended to comment negatively but rather a first hand experience.

Lizzy the Porkchop

Real Name: Liz Gabrielle

Nickname: Liz, Lizzy/Lizzie, Porkchop

Age: 6 months old

She will probably hate us when she grows up because we all call her 'Porkchop' but she's too cute and fat. Lizzy is my niece by my first cousin. I can't get enough of her that I always pinch her legs. One thing that I totally love about Lizzy is that she smiles at all times. :)